Cupid's Chokehold

Today

I got my TB test :( It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be - since I never had a shot in so long. But I have to go back on Thursday to have it read.

I'm waiting for Christy to get home, so I can go to the new house with Uncle Paul and start painting my room! I'm so excited :)

Yesterday was a lot of fun :) I got a little brown! Ate, played UFC, went to KCC, Kahala Mall with Rix, and hung out with Mama Kelly at night. I had quite the "deep conversations" in one day. 

I got called back from Abercrombie! So I have my orientation on Saturday at 3PM. I'm so excited to work there. Jess, Gabby, Travis & Tom already work there.

Saturday, Matty should be coming over, but I don't know all the details. I wanna go pick him up really bad instead of having him drive here. We'll see. He's also a little sick, so I hope he feels better soon!

Moving Along

So I've applied to Abercrombie, The Pineapple Room in Macy's, and Victoria's Secret. I'm very excited, and I hope I receive some good news!

Today was very long, but fun. I tagged along with my parents again to run errands. I also had my eye exam today, and should be getting my colored contacts pretty soon. 

I could have gone out with Jessica to the Third Eye Blind concert, but my parents didn't want me driving out there at night. It would have been nice to hang with Jess because it's been so long, but hopefully I'll see her more often if I get the job at Abercrombie.

I completed my first puzzle of Sodoku EVER, from the newspaper. Those are always so tough! Haha.

I have 1o more pages to read of "Dear John" by Nicholas Sparks. (I will finish after typing this up) It's so good and sad. I can't believe I'm done with two books already. I love it though, I really miss reading and I'm glad I finally can make time to do so.

One thing I've been thinking about lately, is my relationship with Matt. We're "best friends" right now, but it's somewhat confusing because if we were together, it would be the same thing what we're doing. Texting and calling each other whenever he's done with his chores around the house. I don't quite understand how it would be different other than by just taking away the label of "boyfriend/girlfriend." I'd like to know, but I'm scared to bring it up just because I don't want to end up fighting with him about things. I'd just like an explanation, but I think I'm going to just go with the flow, for now, because I do enjoy where I am with him right now. I don't want him to think that we should be together if he doesn't feel that way...with all the extra pressure. It's fustrating just because what we're doing now, how I'm acting, how I'm not getting mad, or worried about things, is what it would be like if we were together. I swear, that night we broke up, I realized so much. SO MUCH. But, he doesn't believe things will be any different. I'm showing him a lot of improvement, but I don't know if he's noticing it because it's something that he's not interested in. Who knows. I'll let things play out.

Next Episode

Alot has happen since I last updated. I am currently looking for another job. Hopefully I can get to job hunting soon. The new house is starting to finally come along :) I'm excited for that. Matt and I are just best friends now. It was very tough, but I'm glad I decided to keep him in my life. I would have just been bitter and upset about how everything ended, I know it. I feel like I made the better choice instead of putting myself ahead of how I was feeling in the moment. It's tough on us, on him. He's got a lot of priorities to take care of at home with his parents, getting a job, and school. I'm glad I can still be here for him, as a best friend at least. He means the world to me, and I hope he knows that.  We just got to take things one step at a time right now. His life is quite hectic and I hope things look up for him. I really do. He's such a nice guy and he deserves a break. He works way too hard for his age for his parents around the house, constantly - 24/7. I still love him with all my heart, and I will always. He's taught me so much about everything, I'm extremely grateful for everything we've been through, and yet to go through as best friends. A part of me feels like we never really took time to develop being best friends. Yeah, he helped me with a boy situation once and I had a completely different outlook on him as a person. But, I feel now, that when we were together, we became best friends. We didn't get a period where we were just best friends looking out for each other, being there for each other. Like there was a different motive as to why we considered each other our best friend because we liked each other. I have no idea if that made any sense at all, but I know what I mean, haha. We'll see how everything goes. We need to develop this area of our friendship more. So I'm looking forward to what the future has in store for us. 

Work!

Holy crap, today was an adventure. It was better than I thought it would be. I'm a "legal aid" making $9 an hour. I work Tues-Friday 10AM-3:30 PM. I'm happy with that schedule :)

It feels good to just do office word all day long, hahah.

Well, I'm going to dinner tonight with a bunch of people from elementary school, like a reunion, at Shokudo. I'm excited to see everyone and I've never eaten there before.

Everything is great!!!!!!!! I'm finally BUSY, which won't bore me anymore. I need to ALWAYS be on the goooooooooo.

I love my baby<3333

When I count my blessings,

I count you twice.

♥

Silly

Can't believe I read this all, but it's funny.

Week

There's way too much I need to do right now. I decided to go to KCC for Fall term because I missed the deadline for UH. So spring term I'll be going to UH Manoa. I wouldn't mind staying at KCC, since it's ridiculously cheap and parking is better, but they don't have psychology for a major :( Boo.

I'm in the process of looking for a job. I have something lined up at a lawyer's office, but it's so sketch. Tomorrow I'm going to check out the parking situation and see from there. Also, the pay will be a bonus, IF it's good. I applied at SushiMan, just cause it's close to home and something I love. I've never had to make sushi before, but we'll see how that goes. Now that I have a car, I wouldn't mind working somewhere farther. I need to stop by Kahala and Ala Moana sometime.

Tonight, I'm going to dinner with my two favs! Amy & Tay. We're going to PF Changs in Waikiki. I never ate there before, so I'm excited.

Sunday, I shall be seeing my lovebuggie :) We've got a whole list of things to do that day. But, I just realized it's father's day, so hopefully we can still do what we planned.

Monday, I'm having dinner with a couple people from Makalapa. That should be fun! We're going to Shokudo around 630PM

Tuesday is Mikee's b-day! She still has to figure out what she wants to do. Hopefully she does soon :)

Being back home is great, I just hope things go smoothly.

The Countdown

Tomorrow's Agenda:

-USEM Final

-Check mail for running shoes

-Cancel bank account

-Jog with my baby (if the weather is good)

-Blow bubbles :)

-Laundry

-Finish packing

The days are finally winding down! Pretty much done packing. Just gotta clean the room up and get ready to mail ALL my boxes out back home, which is a load of money :( Friday = the HOTEL with my baby!! Going to the mall & eating out at Olive Garden. I can't wait to get out of here ♥

Excitement

It is around 2:30 AM and I can't sleep at all! My mind is racing. I'm SO excited to be going back home. This week is going to be crazy. I have TWO TAKE HOME FINALS ;) and one in class writing on Wednesday. Packing my entire room is a pain. I didn't realize how much things I had. Or clothes I had. Matt and I have a busy day tomorrow. After he gets out of class we're going to donate my three bags of clothes, go Downtown to pick up flat rate mailing boxes, call UH Manoa for school, start packing more, and watch Land of the Lost and The Hangover. UGHHH, I can't be more excited. Friday morning we are checking out of our dorms, heading over to our Hotel Suite♥ Going to the mall, do a little shopping. SIMS3?! Then go out for dinner at Olive Garden!! Our flight is Saturday morning at 5AM. Not to forget, it's my BABY'S BIRTHDAY! Going home is gonna be a blast, I feel it already!