Today was very long, but fun. I tagged along with my parents again to run errands. I also had my eye exam today, and should be getting my colored contacts pretty soon.
I could have gone out with Jessica to the Third Eye Blind concert, but my parents didn't want me driving out there at night. It would have been nice to hang with Jess because it's been so long, but hopefully I'll see her more often if I get the job at Abercrombie.
I completed my first puzzle of Sodoku EVER, from the newspaper. Those are always so tough! Haha.
I have 1o more pages to read of "Dear John" by Nicholas Sparks. (I will finish after typing this up) It's so good and sad. I can't believe I'm done with two books already. I love it though, I really miss reading and I'm glad I finally can make time to do so.
One thing I've been thinking about lately, is my relationship with Matt. We're "best friends" right now, but it's somewhat confusing because if we were together, it would be the same thing what we're doing. Texting and calling each other whenever he's done with his chores around the house. I don't quite understand how it would be different other than by just taking away the label of "boyfriend/girlfriend." I'd like to know, but I'm scared to bring it up just because I don't want to end up fighting with him about things. I'd just like an explanation, but I think I'm going to just go with the flow, for now, because I do enjoy where I am with him right now. I don't want him to think that we should be together if he doesn't feel that way...with all the extra pressure. It's fustrating just because what we're doing now, how I'm acting, how I'm not getting mad, or worried about things, is what it would be like if we were together. I swear, that night we broke up, I realized so much. SO MUCH. But, he doesn't believe things will be any different. I'm showing him a lot of improvement, but I don't know if he's noticing it because it's something that he's not interested in. Who knows. I'll let things play out.
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