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Alot has happen since I last updated. I am currently looking for another job. Hopefully I can get to job hunting soon. The new house is starting to finally come along :) I'm excited for that. Matt and I are just best friends now. It was very tough, but I'm glad I decided to keep him in my life. I would have just been bitter and upset about how everything ended, I know it. I feel like I made the better choice instead of putting myself ahead of how I was feeling in the moment. It's tough on us, on him. He's got a lot of priorities to take care of at home with his parents, getting a job, and school. I'm glad I can still be here for him, as a best friend at least. He means the world to me, and I hope he knows that.  We just got to take things one step at a time right now. His life is quite hectic and I hope things look up for him. I really do. He's such a nice guy and he deserves a break. He works way too hard for his age for his parents around the house, constantly - 24/7. I still love him with all my heart, and I will always. He's taught me so much about everything, I'm extremely grateful for everything we've been through, and yet to go through as best friends. A part of me feels like we never really took time to develop being best friends. Yeah, he helped me with a boy situation once and I had a completely different outlook on him as a person. But, I feel now, that when we were together, we became best friends. We didn't get a period where we were just best friends looking out for each other, being there for each other. Like there was a different motive as to why we considered each other our best friend because we liked each other. I have no idea if that made any sense at all, but I know what I mean, haha. We'll see how everything goes. We need to develop this area of our friendship more. So I'm looking forward to what the future has in store for us.