Yeah, I was being stubborn as fuck. I'm not going to allow someone I dislike, with a passion, tell me what to do. There were many options. But, that's how it all played out. I enjoyed hearing her bitch about me. She has no idea what I'm doing for her son. Yeah, she's paying for him to be up here. But she must not be supplying enough for him, if I'm dishing out all the cash for everyday essentials. The nerve to still say "Go to Vegas, so we can buy a house!" That still blows my mind on how selfish people can be. Just so they can gamble and have a outlet to go to Vegas in the first place. He doesn't even want to go there.
I think parents should be more aware of their children's wants and needs. I sure hope when I'm older..I KNOW when I'm older I will be the best to support and provide what my child needs. I know I'm going to spoil them because they deserve it. I can't, but I can wait. Haha.
I'm sorry if YOU have to read/hear/see this.
Anyways, going home is going to be great, I know it. I get to see my parents everyday, my friends, and hopefully have a Bitsy! My parents might be moving into a new house, on the marina. Just how my dad wanted, which will be great. I think my parents will be a lot happier there, and that's all that matters.
The only thing is my relationship with Matt. In Oregon, we had so much freedom. But we can't have too much of a good thing, I suppose. I am just very scared and doubtful. I want to stay with him, but I know there are going to be sooo much obstacles I'm going to have to face. *-fisjc I have to face. I don't see myself going over to his house, AT ALL. I don't feel comfortable even more. Christmas was horrible there. I shouldn't have to put myself in a situation like that. I'm over that shit. All I fear is that I'm going to HAVE to deal with this if I do want to be with him for the rest of my life. Worth it?
I hope something happens that will help me out.
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